The butterflies in my stomach

I am going on my first long vacation.. To a place where I have my brothers and many other relatives and friends. This is going to be my first international trip too all by myself.

It is so funny, at times things happen to you when you are least thinking about it. Going to US was not even on my mind and it just happened all of a sudden out of nowhere.

I really needed a break from daily chaos to think bout what do I need to do next. I don't know if I am a good planner. 

Few days ago, I was going through some of my college/ school scrap book, pictures, greetings, letters- I was reading stuff what my friends wrote bout me/ for me. I also found some stuff which I wrote when I was in college and never published it. And it was really a very weird feeling that I dint remember how was I in college/school. Of course I do have a lot of memories to cherish all my life during those days and so far most wonderful days of my life. But I dint remember how was I?

Most important thing which I realized on this day is that certain situations which happened, changes you completely from what you were. Change is for good but it does has some repercussions too. I wonder if the a total change and when you learn bout yourself and you say- "was that me! Really?" 

Growing up at times takes away so much from you and also gives a lot in return too. 

Another impactful change of my life was when I started giving away pieces of me to someone who wasn't going to be a part of my future. Love teaches two things most importantly 1. Being selfless and 2. Being helpless. And in most of the situations you deal with it either selflessly or helplessly. This part of my life changed me to a complete different person. Yes, I still carry this emotional baggage and just trying too hard to let it go. And I wonder- how do I? Most important lessons this part of my life taught me is: never lose your individuality over anybody, you have right to do things you want to do (never forget that and never underestimate yourself) and being loved in return is as much important as loving someone. 

So this one trip has a lot of actions which are on me. I have butterflies in my stomach too as I am going to meet my brother after almost 8 years. I am going to be away from my family, friends and work for a long time. And I may also experience what it takes to be 'happy' and even feel how is it when you are 'happy'. 

I will undergo another change process for a short time and I wonder how long will the effects of this short change last... My travelogue which today I presume will have a lot of action, drama and fun starts 10 days from now! And pre-holiday drama and fun starts today.. 

Who am I?

One wears multiple hats on daily basis.. A loved person at home, friends with friends, being what others want you to be at work.. N some network with others. Multiple relationships one person. Have you ever thought that while you play so many roles who you actually are? You have been different with different people.. What defines you??? In our busy lives.. We barely spend or get to spend anytime for ourselves to reflect within to understand one self. There is this reality show called Big Boss.. The concept of this show is that you are away from your family, friends, peers etc with no access to Technology.. And you are put up with all strangers in the house and you have to live with them! As this show starts one tries to be nice n goodie to every other person on the show.. It tests how long can you refrain from being your true self.. What's your break even point.. How much can you take it.. 

There could be some people who are indifferent to others.. These set of people might have different challenges.. As you always want to be treated differently! 

The most interesting study one can do is on humans.. It's so unpredictable and you end up learning bout this specie all your life and still haven't learnt enough bout it..

Perceptions are not reality!!

There is a thin line between perception and judgemental.. Remember the saying 'if you judge people you won't have time to love them'. Change is the only constant factor and this stands true for all human beings too.. People change with time as their situations change.. Their thought process changes.. One cannot hold what they perceive bout others all their life! 

Give them benefit of doubt and put yourself in their shoes to understand where they are coming from. Creating an opinion bout others is too easy but understanding others is maturity. 

Let go of things and move on. Don't hold grudges.. Be open. If you are closed then you are not letting anybody in..  As quoted by Aristotle: In the arena of human life the honors and rewards fall to those who show their good qualities in action.

The Plan

We all make so many plans.. Weekend movie plans.. Vacation plans.. Wedding plans.. Work plans.. And also measure the outcomes of each of these plans..

Some of us master the skill of execution and meet the required objectives within/before/delayed timelines.. Some of us master planning but just cannot execute and measure are vague.. And just a few who are great in both of the areas.

At work this is such an important skill.. One can grow in an organisation just too fast when he/she learns this skill.

What happens when this comes to our real life's? We just cannot predict the future.. We are dependent on people who will either help us get there or stop us from going there.. How many times have we been in a situation where we sit back and think that it's just not going the way I planned.. It tears us apart and bringing ourselves together and coming out stronger from any mess that we got ourselves into is what we learn.

Just go with the flow keeping the end goal in mind. It hurts less and isn't lame but smart.. You can just have a right now plan as you cannot predict the future anyway!!

No stress

It's an art not to be stressful at all. A trick that works wonders and is just common sense which is so uncommon. 

We are stressed cause of some people or in a situation.. When this occurs just ask yourself 'is it worth it?' If your answer is 'yes' just vent it out and if its otherwise then you know what to do.

One doesn't need lessons for stress management.. It's just so simple.

Don't worry.. Be happy! Life is too short to be stressed.